Friday, 15 April 2016

Aren't We All Battling a Sin?

On my way to work today, as I zoned out through the train window because I had finished my book Will Grayson by John Green (which was actually quite good), and I had seen quite an overweight woman holding a bag of pizza rolls, I thought perhaps her biggest challenge, and the sin that obviously defines her life, is gluttony?

Now I did not mean this in a bad way at all. I wasn't being judgement, but lately I had been thinking that perhaps each one of us has one (or more) of the 7 deadly sins that is constantly testing and tempting us. And this woman I assume would be battling the deadly sin, gluttony. 

Everyone will at least at some point, have a personal encounter with at least one of the sins. It will lead us to do something bad, or set us off of our paths and make our lives generally so much harder and being generally happy difficult.

Okay, I'm getting a bit too far ahead now but what if the goal to our lives is to beat the 7 deadly sins? Overcome them and find happiness or perhaps enlightenment? And what if one of them; one in particular, challenges us the most?

Some people settle for lustful relationships because it gives them a sense of satisfaction for a moment, but in the end, they end up hurt. They do not end up where they want to be. They end up in the wrong relationships that may harm them and those around them. 

And then there are so many wealthy people who are greedy with their money and assets. They are constantly worrying about losing what they have and thereby not sharing and or helping others, that their real life not based on physical things, slips right past them. The life that is not defined by money.

Now I would say mine is envy. I have always been a jealous person. I want what other people have. I see lives I want as my own. And I often hope those people will fail, in order to feel better about myself. It's quite pathetic really. I am often more focused on other people's lives that I forget to appreciate my own. This is one of my biggest challenges that makes it hard for me to be happy.
But I know that. And I'm doing a lot better.

And I guess some sins make it more obvious for others to spot them; for instance gluttony. 

I was so deep in thought about this I actually considered writing a book with a similar concept, but with a story line. I thought perhaps I could write about angels and demons battling it out, where the demons tried to tempt the humans with the sins and the angels tried to keep them on the right path. But then I realized, what would the kind of person be like if they did succeed and overcome these obstacles? Because I sure as hell am not that person; so I put that idea down.

But if I do ever overcome the sins, I'll be sure to let you know what it's like on the other side. 

Saturday, 9 April 2016

The Perks of Being A Root

Please excuse the pathetic title of my post. I was attempting to mimic The Perks of Being a Wallflower whilst relating it to what I was going to discuss, or perhaps mildly state. 
And no, the term 'root' is not the commonly used slang term to describe a sexual act, but is actually meant as the roots of like a flower, or tree. 

So, many of you know about the perks of being a 'wallflower' but what about the perks of being a root (though the perks can be quite similar)? 

Those of who I would classify as a 'root', are deep. And it's a good thing.
I have been told on numerous occasions by others that I am 'so deep' or 'wow you really put a lot of thought into this, do you have a life?' And yes, thank you. I try.
It can be great. I can give advice from perspectives many have not considered, and come up with solutions that others perhaps would never have thought of, and created metaphors from everyday objects and things such as a hotel, or a root

It's something I am proud of, and I am sure many of you feel the same way. 

But its not all great, that's for sure, although I don't need to tell all of you that. 
For those of you are deep, or a root, should I sayman I feel you.
I don't doubt that you have some qualities about you that could be filed under the 'psychotic' category.
We are after all trying to find understanding where others have not understood. We have often felt what others are too scared or oblivious to feel. We dig deep in situations that most others merely glide over, not wanting more than the summary or brief explanation.
It can be tough being so sensitive about matters that aren't completely relevant to our every day lives but feel so relevant to the exact moment that we are experiencing.

Because, as great as seeing things from a perspective that has not always been seen, damn can it get dark. The view sure as hell isn't always great down there.